My English is realy bad and sometimes creepy... but yeah, i dont wanna speak in Russian anymore >_<
Today i got mail from someone i dunno. He wrote in latvian but i think with translaitor help :>
And he said something that made me smile. Something like "thanks to whom you are so beautiful?" ^^ rofl
Yeah... but to be honest i feel bad last time.. realy bad!
I cant sleep at night, i wanna cry all the time and etc.
Its almost 4am and i feel so sleepy >_<// But I just cant sleep... CANT!!!
Yesterday at evening i felt so bad... and i lying on the bed and crying for an hour...
I felt like I dont wanna live anymore T_T...
My mom asked me - why are you crying? And I lied to her and said - Because of this bad, unsuccessful holidays..
But you know... this is part of the truth...
While i cried, i remembered my childhood Christmas and New Year with mom, dad and grandma..
And i felt so bad and hopeless... blah U_U.. I HATE myself./.
Aslo my aunt is in hospital, and gonna stay there for all holidays.. shitness +_+..
So this Christmas and New Year realy gonna be the worst ever T_T
God please, grant me something nice too...
All I want for Christmas is YOU! ^_^
But today gonna be good day. Me and mom gonna decorate house and Christmas tree ^_^ finally!!! Wo-hoo!!
And I need take a bath!! And clean our flat too >_< Blah...
By the way I started loosing weight from tuesday ^^
God, help me with this, please please please!!! ^^
Thats all i wanna say for now~
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